It's Thursday. I can feel the weekend vibes.
Today is raining. It will be raining the whole day. I started my day having soup. My husband made it last night. And hot soup is good for cold weather to start my day. I failed to post my blog. Unfortunately I have too many errands I need to finish.
And thank God all is done with the help of my husband. It's easier for me because he has a car. We both did everything before lunch time. I just asked my boss if I will do something important before lunch.
Here no boss, sir, ma'am is calling the owner. It's the first name basis. Even at school..I was shocked when I visited Aya. And she just calls her teacher's name only. Not ma’am or teacher.
I ask her, why did you not call her ma'am, it's a sign of respect for Aya. She just answered me: Mama, they're calling her Katka. No ma'am mama. And Katka says it's ok.
Until my daughter got used to it on a first name basis.
Unexpected Errands Yesterday:
- My Autobus Card- I need to have it so I can have a discount for traveling by bus.
Just to fill up the card with cash. No coins everyday. And here their cards-cashless.
From 1.15 euro one way to my work. And now it's 1.04 euro. It's small cents but it's better than nothing. Everything the money starts which cents the coins.
Aya will have one too, But unfortunately there's a paper needed to fill up by her teacher. So just grab the form gave she will gave to her teacher. And next time she will use the card.
We took 10 minutes to finish my card. And it has a cover already. Included in the payment.
- Aya has online singing lessons.
We need to go home because she will use a zoom for her class. They don't have class but her teacher messaged her. If she's free she has time to teach even online
I like her teacher, she really gave time for my daughter even in class. Just to use the time wisely rather than playing roblox .
Her teacher Reka is so busy and has a concert. She went to Japan and other places in Europe.
Aya cannot install zoom on her mobile. Because I have a family link account. Even installing apps she needs my password. 😁
I don't like to give her my password.
Fast Forward
Finally, it's all ok.
So now I went to my mother in law to have my lunch. She tells me she cooks delicious food. And of course who I am to say no. It's a free food and home-cooked meal. I said to her at lunchtime I will go there. It's only a 5 minutes walk from my work.
Walking helps me to think. With the cold chasing through my skin I can think well. Like future plans, future blogs I will create, anything. And I took photos while I was walking.
So by walking slowly, I saw a family. Walking through the rain without an umbrella, just their waterproof coat.
Secretly, I took a photo of them. And here I am thinking again. It's so different here, far from the family that I used to live in. We're an extended family so we know what extended means, we're too much in one place. We’re only 4 people at home. And if you have a family you need to separate from your parents. You have family so you have your own place to call home.
The weather is so depressing, like literally I can't stop thinking. Sometimes I want to stop my brain, shut it down for hours and turn it on if I need to. But it's so impossible.
I told myself I need to be stronger and healthy for my family. Unexpected things happening. No matter what weather it is, there is a hindrance in our plans. But life must go. I must keep going forward. These are all challenges in life. Planning is better for my family , for my kids' future. All I pray is that God will guide me whatever decisions I make. I wish I could stay forever with them. All I want is to see them as a good person, pursue their dreams and be successful.
These are parents' dreams for their kids. Oh God, you know what my heart desires. Please guide us always.
My mental health is suffering in this kind of weather. With the providence of His grace, I know God will help me and I will be okay every day—both physically and mentally. People say, “Ohhhh your so lucky your here. I still sometimes feel depressed, much like in this kind of weather. It’s been raining all day, which only deepens my sadness.
Hope I can adjust soon.Like totally belong to them. I'm fortunate for everything I have right now. And I thank God for everything.
FINALLY ARRIVED
My lunch for today. Yummy 😋 Im so blessed to have a generous, caring and loving in laws. 😍
Going back to work, still thinking. hmmmmmmm
This is just my feeling right now. In the movie Inside Out 2, the character of JOY. JOY IS HAPPINESS, CONTENTMENT, A POSITIVE IN LIFE. But still we feel SADNESS. Life is a rollercoaster, a mix of emotions and challenges.
We're just humans so we need to embrace every moment we have.
That's end of my blog today.
Have a nice day everyone.
Love lots,
@katiekate86
